It is only 5:30 am. Only have 18.5 more hours to go to make it to day 10. But who is counting. Just need to make it through the next 3.5 hours. That is when the liquor stores open. Ha Ha.
I am hungry. I have 3 oranges that I stole from my AA meeting last night. That will be breakfast and lunch. This FUCKING disease has reduced me to stealing food and toliet paper! I can see why junkies (i am one) steal to feed their habit. I had the money to pay my bills, but I spent it on booze. Where did that get me? The high is gone and the bills are still there.
Well I surrender. I am totally done. Can't do this shit any more. All I want to do is just disappear. Just not exisit. Just fade away.
They keep telling me in AA that things will get better. For me, the hits just keep on coming. Let's see what exciting adventures await me today.
I guess God is making me see another day. Just another 13 hours until Day 10.
Have a good one.
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