Day 562 - Told to Stop Counting the Days

I was told on another site that I should stop counting the days. Should I? Then how will I know how long I have been sober. It is 5 am in the morning and I can not sleep. Spending my days knitting scarfs. Getting ready for the mini show in Islamorada on December 6th. Things seem to be heading towards this arts and crafts things. God's will? Who knows. Brad is not working, putting stress on Lillie. My SS kicks in next month, will be an income for me. Hopefully I can contribute something toward living here. or should I say existing here. What is it that I want? Nothing is making me happy. What is it with me. The best part of the day is when I get to go to my room and shut the door. I don't know, just too tired to care.