Day 564 - Oh Fuck it All

God, my every move in this house is being watched and known. I have to get out of here and I don't mean this house. I have got to get out of this life. It is just to fucking hard. I do not want to do this any more. What is the sense in trying when I don't know what the purpose is. Why am I just taking up space and oxygen? Yeah I know here I go again. Must be the full moon coming. Just keep on yaking about the same old same old. I don't know how to fix myself. Stay in my room today. Can't deal with the world. Have a f2f meeting tonight. Oh fuck it all.