Day 611 - Sigh....Looks like they are staying

Shelly and Nico are going to be living with us. I have resigned myself to that fact, but it does not mean I have to like it. There's is something about Shelly that I just don't trust. Maybe it is because I was/am a junkie like her and that I do not believe she is committed to being sober. I can't say anything about it to anyone. I just do not want it to interfere with my sobriety. When I moved 1500 miles to be here, I did not sign up for a twenty-two year old addict and her 4-year old son. I can't blame Nico too much. He is only 4 years old. But he's is growing up and is a really, really smart kid. Sometimes he can be so lovable and cute and other times he can be so oooooh. I want to grab him by the scruff of his neck and thrown he out the window. Today, Shelly burst into my room. You took over the whole house, now you want to invade MY SPACE. NOT HAPPENING BITCH!!! This is going to be tough to accept. I just have to keep on praying for the acceptance. It is going to be a really big, hard pill for me to swallow. GOD, HELP ME AND SAVE ME!!