Day 623 - Fuck I am Still Here

Keep praying not to wake up. Not working. Life goes on and on and on. God kill me now! It is almost 3 PM in the afternoon. My brother-in-law is suppose to building a "ladder" for my sister's shawl display for our show on Saturday. He has not done one iota of work on it. All three of them are just sitting around doing nothing. I am so fucking sick of this life. Jesus Christ CAN YOU HEAR ME! I WANT OUT OF THIS FUCKING SHIT. IS THIS A TEST? I DID NOT SIGN ON FOR A 4-YEAR OLD AND HIS DEADBEAT MOTHER. I HAVE BEEN WORKING SINCE I HAVE BEEN 12 YEARS OLD!! THAT IS 50 FUCKING YEARS. I WILL BE WORKING UNTIL THE DAY I DIE. I AM SO SICK OF PEOPLE SUCKING THE LIFE OUT OF ME. GOD, FUCKING KILL ME NOW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!