Day 481 What am I doing Here?

I don't mean Florida. I mean what am I doing here on this planet? My depression is starting to come back. I don't know. Geographical change is not the answer. I am finding that out. What the fuck is wrong with me? God, is having a job really that important? I will never find the answer on how to fix myself. Some days I just wish I could just disappear. Key to Serenity: And acceptance is the answer to all my problems today. When I am disturbed, it is because I find some person, place, thing or situation -- some fact of my life -- unacceptable to me, and I can find no serenity until I accept that person, place, thing or situation as being exactly the way it is supposed to be at this moment. Nothing, absolutely nothing happens in God's world by mistake. Until I could accept my alcoholism, I could not stay sober; unless I accept life completely on life's terms, I cannot be happy. I need to concentrate not so much on what needs to be changed in the world as on what needs to be changed in me and in my attitudes. Needed to be reminded of the above. Acceptance for me is everything.