Day 484 Beginning of another work week...

...and still no job. This is driving me nuts. I know it is only a month since I have been in Key Largo, but I have been out of work since February. That short term assignment I had from April through June does not really count. Out of money, can't pay my cell phone bill. Will need to ask my sister. How can I? She has done so much for me already. I want to WORK. What the hell is wrong with me? Why won't anyone hire me? I can't even get a call back down here. God, I am slowly going insane. Even the dog is barking at me? Drinking will not solve the problem. Killing my self will. As the old cliche goes: that is a permanent solution to a temporary problem. Heard from Mike AA back in Boston. He and Mark AA are driving down to Key West on Thursday night. They are going to stop by here sometime on Saturday. Self hatred and negative thoughts are bouncing around in my head. I can not make the voices stop this morning. Killing myself will.